A Letter To My Younger Self

Written by MjauMay 28, 2019

On the evening of my 30th birthday a few weeks back, I poured myself a hot and luxurious bath with flower petals and bath salts. As the hot water made my body soft I ventured inwards, into the expansive space inside of me yet beyond my body.

I felt everything and nothing, and while lying there I saw my life play within as if it was a movie. I recognized that I have suffered a lot in my short time here on earth. I also reckoned that I lived a wild and unusual life. As the movie was playing, in no particular order but rather jumping from event to event, I became flooded with the wish to talk to this young girl, as to give her some guidance. That wish turned into this letter.

I hope you can take some wisdom from it, or show it to someone who might need some advice. Growing up is hard, and being a human is impossible. Even so, it’s truly a once in a lifetime experience.

Dear wild one;

Being your true authentic self is real beauty, the kind that radiates from within. Don’t be so obsessed what other people think of you or who they expect you to be. There’s only one of you, so please, you do you honey.

Stand up for what you believe in, even if it means standing alone. But make sure that you have all the facts to lean on. It makes it easier to make your case and to have people join your cause. All change in society started with individual action.

Be of service. Speak up for those who got no voice. As you have suspected for long now little one, animals are being terribly abused in our society even though everyone is acting like it’s normal. You play an important part in putting this to an end.

Give to those less fortunate than yourself. Even when you feel like you have nothing to give, a smile or eye contact can make someone’s day.

You are too great for them drugs and alcohol baby. It aint real. STOP RUNNING FROM YOURSELF. You are just wasting your time with these distractions.

Learn to say no and set boundaries. It’s fine to put your own well being first. If someone keeps bugging you about it even after you said no, warn them once and if they don’t get the message, then walk away. Know your worth.

All you can ever do is your best, so make it a habit to forgive yourself.

Also forgive others. That doesn’t mean that what they said or did was ok, but it will help you move on and heal much faster. You do not want these traumas to manifest physically in your body. Create a forgiveness ritual, perhaps around the full moon and release all that no longer serves you. Trust me on this one, it’s HUGE.

Clean water is a real luxury. Drink it and appreciate it. And while you are at it, lather some mineral sunscreen on your face and decollage too.

You can tell a lot about a person on how they treat the people working for them; maids, waitresses, drivers, teachers and everyone in between. Stay away from people who act like they are better than others simply because they have money/are beautiful/important or whatever story they are telling themselves.

On that note, show everyone respect. If it turns out they are not worthy of your effort or time, simply walk away. Don’t allow anyone to bring your frequency down.

Stop being so fixated on the future and be present in the now. This is where it all happens and where you manifest what is about to come.

Also, let go of the past. It doesn’t serve you and it’s not important as anything other than a cherished memory or a lesson. Don’t spend too much time dwelling on either of these two though.

Respect yourself or other wont. Embrace all the little imperfect things that make you you and hug yourself in the mirror. Self love is so important. Your cells are listening to every word and thought you have about yourself and they act accordingly.

On the matter of letting go; you will outgrow people. That’s fine. You are not obligated to stay friends with them. It’s ok to cut toxic people out of your life.

Make time to see your elders. When they are gone aint nothing going to bring them or their wisdom back.

grandma and me

Listen to your gut. The belly sends more signals to the brain than the other way around. If it feels off, it probably is. Another note on this, when you are drunk or high you won’t hear that gut feeling a.k.a your intuition at all. Just saying…

Choose your friends wisely. Your vibe attracts your tribe and vise versa.

Love yourself.

Stop worrying so much about your weight. Move your body and dont eat like a pig and you’ll be fine. I PROMISE.

If you want people to trust you, be honest. It’s as simple as that.

Connect with nature. Never ever underestimate the power of our planet. Kick of your shoes, take a walk in the forest, listen to the water in the stream. Our mother will comfort you, inspire you, hold you and make all your dreams come true. Take care of her.

It’s ok not to know everything. Be curious and ask questions. Venture out of your comfort zone, that’s where all the opportunities are and the magic happens.

You cannot dim the light of those who are destined for greatness. They can hurt you, talk shit about you, laugh at you, even use physical violence. BUT THEY CANNOT DIM YOUR LIGHT. You are a starseed and a lightworker destined for an extraordinary life.

Praying is speaking to the universe. Meditation is listening to it.

You are not your emotions. You have emotions. Don’t repress or hold on to them. Let them flow, in and out, like the waves on the shoreline.

Neither are you what you did. Nor what you said. You are not what society is telling you. Let all that shit go. Every day is a new day and anyone who wants can start anew.

You love. A lot. Each and single one of your boyfriend will feel like the one and when it bursts your heart will feel like it will never heal. It will. You’re fine. You just feel deeply my love, and that’s a beautiful thing.

Listen to your body. She is very wise and knows her stuff. Rest when you are tired. Don’t workout when you are hurting. Eat when you are hungry. Don’t eat what’s making you feel bad.

You are co creating your life with the universe. What you focus on you will get more of. This fact makes you 100% responsible of your own life.

You are never alone. You have a whole army of spiritual beings around you cheering you on at any given moment.

You are so loved beautiful Kajsa. Never doubt it.